loss

The Begining

It’s an interesting time to make my first post, but if i start putting off the blogging already I’m doomed to having this blog fail like all the rest.  I obviously can’t let that happen, so here we go 😛

The crazy universe is trying to tell me that i’m either doing too much, or I’m not doing enough, because it’s been throwing some major curve balls at me.  I just faced one of the hardest things I have ever had to face in my entire life, a sick baby.  I thought that babies were hard sometimes and easy others, but I have discovered a whole new level of hard.  A baby that can’t eat, and doesn’t sleep well equals a very tired, stressed out mom.  Trying to find different ways to help her breath through her nose long enough to be able to down 4oz of formula was even harder than figuring out how to make her hold still while trying to put close on her.  To make it even that much harder, I have been sick with an unyielding cold that has left me zombie like for the past few weeks, I keep claiming I have the plague.  I can be pretty pathetic when I’m sick, and I have a crappy immune system so I’m sick a lot 😛

Continuing on… This is also my month of mourning.  I have suffered from a large amount of loss in the months of February in the years past and I have turned February into a month of mourning for those I’ve lost.  It’s drawn out and I know that people would suggest I move on instead of mourning year after year, but I mourn those that I will never forget, that i should never forget, not those that have no place returning to my thoughts again and again.  So here is to a new beginning for me, to honor those that don’t have the second chance that I’m gifted with.

Here is a playlist for those lost.  I know that most of you will appreciate this ❤

Just a Dream

Darkening Sky

Wish You Were Here

Lucy

What Hurts The Most

My Immortal

Thinking of You

Fly